the ugly of exercise, leftovers and intuitive eating, and a podcast I can't get enough of.

on my mind // Given Bodies and @immaeatthat’s Movement Web

Call me sheltered, but it wasn’t until college that I really learned that the act of moving our bodies can be used and abused.

“I don’t like running, but I like what it does to my body,” one friend told me. And that single sentence represents so much of the angst, grief and discomfort I witnessed on the topic of exercise and body while in college. 

I didn’t have words to explain or make sense of what I was seeing and hearing. But I knew deep down that practices and beliefs like those of my friend were problematic. 

So, in college, I did what any rebel would do: I only moved how I wanted and when I wanted. 

Along the way, I missed some exercise/fitness/movement opportunities that would have been really enjoyable in hindsight. 

But, through only doing what I wanted when I wanted, I learned two important lessons.

I learned that movement as a means of controlling our body size, managing eating habits, and coping is a manipulative taskmaster; it gives the illusion of control while ultimately controlling you. But, I also learned that movement solely done to connect us to our bodies frees us to enjoy and celebrate the goodness and gift that our bodies are, no matter their shape or size

And this movement web below from Kylie Mitchell of @ImmaEatThat is helping me differentiate between movement that imprisons me and movement frees me. Instead of asking movement to give us results, this exercise of creating a movement web asks us to examine the ways we abuse exercise to serve the gods of thinness and control, then hear what our bodies are telling us about joy and pleasure through movement.

An activity to help increase awareness about what movement is good or bad for you👆🏼
October 30, 2018

We’re creatures given bodies. And just like our appetites, we can use our movement to serve our own ends, feeding our fears and catering to our idols. Or we can see movement as the gift that it is: an opportunity to delight in the goodness of the created world.

in my feed // The Leftovers Effect from @EvelynTribole

If I had to summarize the most important lesson I’ve learned through practicing intuitive eating, it just might be this. 

Have you noticed how leftovers of a favorite meal loses it appeal after a few days? It still may taste good, but by the third day or so, the dish is not as appealing as it once was. This is an example of habituation.⁣⁣
Habituation is one of the scientific underpinnings of Making Peace with Food, the 3rd principle of #IntuitiveEating.⁣⁣
In short, habituation explains how with repetition & exposure, the novelty wears off of any new experience. It can be anything —a new car, a new relationship, or food. At first, it’s exciting. Then, over time, you gradually notice—it’s nice, but the thrill is not there, kinda meh.⁣⁣
Conversely, diet culture keeps forbidden foods exciting & scary. There is no habituation for the person who jumps from one food plan to another.⁣⁣
When you forbid yourself from eating specific foods, for the purpose of shrinking your body, it can create a backlash.⁣
Upon eating a forbidden food, If you truly believe that you will never eat that food again—it can easily turn into a farewell to food feast, a Last Supper.⁣⁣
Ultimately, this type of eating may not feel good. It often terrifies the person, who in an effort to reign in control, invokes another set of food rules—only for.the cycle to begin anew. No habituation.⁣⁣
Making peace with food is about neutralizing the excitement & urgency of eating a forbidden food. ⁣⁣
It becomes the paradox of permission. When you truly know you can eat a food, you can really ask yourself—do I really want it right now? If I eat it now, will I enjoy it? Do I really like the taste of this food? Do I like the way it feels in my body? ⁣⁣
Making peace with food is a form of exposure therapy that moves formerly forbidden foods from thrilling to mundane. It’s habituation at work! ⁣⁣
What would it be like to:⁣⁣
-Let go of food rules that create white-knuckled restriction & preoccupation with food?⁣⁣
-Enter the holidays with the focus on relationships, rather than food-worry?⁣⁣
Remember, the IE process is about learning & self-discovery, not pass or ⁣⁣
fail. Patience, compassion, & nonjudgemental curiosity are key. ⁣⁣
November 11, 2019

from my life // Catlick

I wondered if Catlick could live up to the hype all over my Instagram.

My friends, it did. Hartman’s storytelling is excellent, but it’s his humility and self-reflection that makes this podcast exceptional.

final words // from Lore Ferguson Wilbert

“I have always loved the gerunds of the gospel, the -ings of our transformation from darkness to light. The becoming, the being, the awakening, the walking, the confessing, and the doing of God’s work. I love the concept of being a work in progress and not the one who has arrived and shows the others the way to go. This is who I am today. By God’s grace it is not who I was yesterday and by his mercy, it is not who I will be tomorrow.”